Whenever you are feeling alone and down, think of it as having a bad time. Of course, it is indeed a horrible time to go through, and you might be swearing that if there is a choice, you rather it doesn't happen to you.
Think of it again. When the sky clears and you see white clouds (and mayb rainbow), you know deep inside you will no longer be the same person again. You have went through THAT much to grow up. At that time, you probably be glad to realise you actually have the capabality to escape, even though with bruises and scratches everywhere. But the main point is, you are still alive.
I believe I am now at the lowest point in life. There are times that I curse every tiny little thing that irritates me. There are also days that I'll wish that a car can just run over me (or something to that extend) so that I can just leave everything behind. I feel penniless, freaking alone, overworked, underpaid, and too much things waiting for me to do. Too many things that I want to do but yet to complete.
However, I am still holding on. I tried, but I cannot give up. I cannot let go, and walk away without turning my head again to say 'Let me try just one last time'.
Here, I have to admit that I walked away one too many times in certain situations. But then, I believe there are bound to be things that you desperately want to keep with you, and hence the determination. Right?
At least this is how I feel about life now. There are people who think otherwise about me. I don't really care.
For those who agrees, Lets walk on and rock the world~!
Pretty random.Labels: Rants
Came back from KL-Genting trip with Kian, Marcus and Ting Ting. Everything was good. We went Genting the first night. All of us lost except for Marcus. Just his luck.
So we went to this famous stall introduced by the cabbie. The famous food there is the ba kut teh and steam fish. Ba kut teh was alright, but the steamfish is fabulous and FRESH! And it is super cheap can! 28 ringgit for 1 whole fish. Wahhh~
So the next 2 days we were busy getting Marcus drunk. Haha. Its funny how he can get drunk easily. But we had fun! :D
Really should organise a getaway once in awhile. Else I will go crazy if I stay in Singapore for too long. :S
Oh ya! I Finally got confirmation from uniSIM. I'm going to studyyyy~!
I believe that is very good news for me. But it also means, I cannot change job for the time being. I need to stay here because it gives me money and the time to go for classes. Omg. I cannot see my future~~~
I've been really good these past few days. Cut down on unhealthy vices. Good. Keep it up! :D
And even though I feel bored, I am glad to say. . . I am feeling much much more peaceful now. At least my world is no longer hazing, and I can see things better. Maybe I should be a nun. There is nothing much to think about then, right?
Lol. . . I am just bored.
