Wednesday, April 30, 2008 12:35 AM
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Finally my mummy is back from Genting. :D
Went dinner with Jo today at Kushinbo. Supposed to be her treat for my birthday, but her friend joined us, and it ended up being his treat. -.- So i sort of 'cheated' Jo into sponsoring for Zhang Shao Han's concert. And the best part is, SHE'S GOING WITH ME! :D
THREE CHEERS FOR JOLENE!
But the bad thing is. . . I am now officially the hot thing on Jo's itinerary. Cos she's trying to match make me with every single guy available. That includes her cousin and her friends. (Including that guy who treated us to Kushinbo.)
We joked about her being the mamasan, and I am one of her girls. So she'll be like bringing me around, introducing to some guys sitting at a round table, or in a room singing karaoke and drinking. I can already imagine old uncles with balding head and big beer bellies.
Please. Spare me.
I guess I am really not in the correct state of mind to know new friends. Thou I do entertain her, and talk to them. And her cousin is not exactly difficult to talk to. . .
But still. . .
I cant help but to miss you so.
- If there is a chance for me to choose, I will rather stay by your side no matter how difficult things may be. Will you please, please don't ever leave me out of your life?
Went dinner with Jo today at Kushinbo. Supposed to be her treat for my birthday, but her friend joined us, and it ended up being his treat. -.- So i sort of 'cheated' Jo into sponsoring for Zhang Shao Han's concert. And the best part is, SHE'S GOING WITH ME! :D
THREE CHEERS FOR JOLENE!
But the bad thing is. . . I am now officially the hot thing on Jo's itinerary. Cos she's trying to match make me with every single guy available. That includes her cousin and her friends. (Including that guy who treated us to Kushinbo.)
We joked about her being the mamasan, and I am one of her girls. So she'll be like bringing me around, introducing to some guys sitting at a round table, or in a room singing karaoke and drinking. I can already imagine old uncles with balding head and big beer bellies.
Please. Spare me.
I guess I am really not in the correct state of mind to know new friends. Thou I do entertain her, and talk to them. And her cousin is not exactly difficult to talk to. . .
But still. . .
I cant help but to miss you so.
- If there is a chance for me to choose, I will rather stay by your side no matter how difficult things may be. Will you please, please don't ever leave me out of your life?
Monday, April 28, 2008 1:49 PM
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I was scrolling through my msn list when I came across Aina's personnal message.
"Sometimes. . . . The greatest journey is the Distance between two people. . . "
For her, the ocean is the biggest problem.
Mine, its that barrier of wall built, and loads and loads of responsibilities from life.
"Sometimes. . . . The greatest journey is the Distance between two people. . . "
For her, the ocean is the biggest problem.
Mine, its that barrier of wall built, and loads and loads of responsibilities from life.
3:28 AM
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My brain is tired. So this post might be very random and doesn't make much sense.
I just wanna talk about. . . Nothing in particular. -.-
Went dblO with jo&co on Sat. We were celebrating Jo's birthday for her, and mine too, cos our birthdays are so near.
Skye was there too. And it was really nice, cos I simply love my promoters. Not ALL my promoters, but Skye was definitely one of the few I love.
And I am very sure I loved my job. At least back then, I was a stressed up, tired coordinator who has no time in the world for silly thoughts. I still love that job, and will still be at it, should the company not be so fucked up.
So, back to dblO. It was fun as usual, with the usual gang. Jo and I were wearing similar dresses. Same, but different color. It was a gift from Jo, supposed to be for my birthday. So yea. Drank alot that day (Duh! Nothing new), and died from the shots. So went home earlier then usual.
Daniel was there too, and seriously, it is super fun to have him around. I owe Daniel some brainy chicks, so I have to keep my eyes open for them!
So, slept through sunday, hoping someone will date me out. Anybody. Skye did ask me out for movie, but he had to go home early cos he's NSF. So I decided not to. Stayed home insteed, and cooked dinner. It was ikan billis soup with fish and shrimps and vege. And steamed chicken wings. I'll throw away the wings for the gravy, but yea, that's food wastage, so my sis and me ate them up. Sumptous meal, and was slacking till now.
Am feeling really empty now. Real emptiness because there's simply too much for me to think. Too much stuffs contridicting me, so I shall just chuck them all aside and hope they'll go away.
Right. Shan't type anymore. Shall only post some pictures from Sat. Long long long time since I posted any pictures on my blog.
The Beauties
Jo & Me (What's Daniel trying to do? o.0)
Lisa & Me 
Me & Daniel
Total Retardation!
Guess that's all for now.
Am planning to swim after I cooked lunch. Hmmm. Shall think about it.
Ta!
Sunday, April 27, 2008 10:39 PM
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How come I feel so insecure.
So uncertain of everything that I have.
And everything else feels so unfamiliar. . .
Even though they belong to me.
So uncertain of everything that I have.
And everything else feels so unfamiliar. . .
Even though they belong to me.
Saturday, April 26, 2008 4:47 AM
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I just met up with Kian for supper at Mac. This is the 100th time within the week that I am having mac for supper, and I guess I am really sick of the food we get at 505. (Do they even serve FOOD??)
Was planning to wake up early for a swim in the morning. But looking at the clock now, I most probably wouldn't be able to wake up at all. But still, I will TRY! Determination is the most wonderful attribute in humans.
for (i=0, i>0, i++). . .
ok. That is very random. But the word attribute brings back memories of programming when I was still in school. All those crazy days. . . I swear I'll never touch programming again.
And! My birthday is coming round the corner!! How's the concert ticket coming along?? Haha. I bet only Kian is looking at all my posts now. So, please hint hint to the rest of the gang ok! And pls find a partner to go with me, and we can all go crazy together!! Maddness time~!!!
Righty! Time to catch some sleep before I die of exhaustion from tomorrow's swim, and nights out at Dblo with jo&co!
Was planning to wake up early for a swim in the morning. But looking at the clock now, I most probably wouldn't be able to wake up at all. But still, I will TRY! Determination is the most wonderful attribute in humans.
for (i=0, i>0, i++). . .
ok. That is very random. But the word attribute brings back memories of programming when I was still in school. All those crazy days. . . I swear I'll never touch programming again.
And! My birthday is coming round the corner!! How's the concert ticket coming along?? Haha. I bet only Kian is looking at all my posts now. So, please hint hint to the rest of the gang ok! And pls find a partner to go with me, and we can all go crazy together!! Maddness time~!!!
Righty! Time to catch some sleep before I die of exhaustion from tomorrow's swim, and nights out at Dblo with jo&co!
Labels: Really Random Post
Sunday, April 20, 2008 10:36 PM
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Was looking at my blog 2 years ago. Cant actually believe that I blogged like that before.
Young times~!
Anyway I came across this thing that I still quite like after so long. Shall re-post this cos its quite true.
Girls are like apples on trees.
The best ones are at the top of the tree.
The boys don't want to reach for the good ones because they're afraid of falling and getting hurt.
Instead they just get the rotten apples that are on the ground, that aren't as good, but easy.
So the apples at the top think that there is something wrong with them,
when in reality, they are amazing.
That is why we just have to be a little patient and the right boy,
the one who takes a chance to find the good, right apple, will come someday...
Maybe I should tell this to Jo. . .
-peace out
Young times~!
Anyway I came across this thing that I still quite like after so long. Shall re-post this cos its quite true.
Girls are like apples on trees.
The best ones are at the top of the tree.
The boys don't want to reach for the good ones because they're afraid of falling and getting hurt.
Instead they just get the rotten apples that are on the ground, that aren't as good, but easy.
So the apples at the top think that there is something wrong with them,
when in reality, they are amazing.
That is why we just have to be a little patient and the right boy,
the one who takes a chance to find the good, right apple, will come someday...
Maybe I should tell this to Jo. . .
-peace out
Saturday, April 19, 2008 11:51 PM
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For everyone in the world, there'll always be this special person in their mind.
I have mine too.
I don't need to replace that person in your heart.
Because I am not her.
I can never be like her, to do the things she did to you.
And I don't want to. Because that is not me.
I want you to see me for who I am, and for what I am.
And I will be here for you as me.
For now, i may be nothing to you.
But I hope as time goes by, I will grow to become someone.
And I don't want you to feel obligated to care for me, to say you think of me etc etc etc.
What I want, is right from your heart.
That you feel, to treat me the way you do.
And for you to be happy.
Just like how you feel when you are having That burger.
I have mine too.
I don't need to replace that person in your heart.
Because I am not her.
I can never be like her, to do the things she did to you.
And I don't want to. Because that is not me.
I want you to see me for who I am, and for what I am.
And I will be here for you as me.
For now, i may be nothing to you.
But I hope as time goes by, I will grow to become someone.
And I don't want you to feel obligated to care for me, to say you think of me etc etc etc.
What I want, is right from your heart.
That you feel, to treat me the way you do.
And for you to be happy.
Just like how you feel when you are having That burger.
Labels: My feelings, My thoughts
3:51 PM
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I Know what you guys can give me for my birthday.
As much as I want Escada's new series of perfume, I am sorry to say that I still have not opened the bottle you guys gave me last year.
Let me tell you what I want.
I want. . . . . . .
Want. . . . .
I wanna go for Angela Zhang Shao Han's concert!!! Someone please bring me there!!!!! (Provided you understand chinese pls...... Lol!)
Aye. Angela is dope.
Or someone can pack Rasheed in a box with cute lil pink ribbons and give him to me.... It'll tickle me to open the box to find him.... Lol.... :X
As for my birthday wishes, I've already thought about them. Nothing too new thou.
:D
As much as I want Escada's new series of perfume, I am sorry to say that I still have not opened the bottle you guys gave me last year.
Let me tell you what I want.
I want. . . . . . .
Want. . . . .
I wanna go for Angela Zhang Shao Han's concert!!! Someone please bring me there!!!!! (Provided you understand chinese pls...... Lol!)
Aye. Angela is dope.
Or someone can pack Rasheed in a box with cute lil pink ribbons and give him to me.... It'll tickle me to open the box to find him.... Lol.... :X
As for my birthday wishes, I've already thought about them. Nothing too new thou.
:D
Thursday, April 17, 2008 4:40 AM
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Things that happened around me opened my eyes.
Is it human to feel inferior/paranoid/lost/forgotten/old/vulnerable/small etc etc?
I guess everyone needs a boost of confidence now and then.
It doesn't matter how strong a person may look, or feel.
It doesn't even matter how you feel about them, because all one need, is something to feed the mind. Or the ego.
My friend thinks she's old, and fat and ugly and has no more appeal to anyone. Which is so not true, because although she's a lil older then me, she still looks young, and cute. Definitely appealing. (Guys, you should see the way she dance man!) She feels so super inferior bout her relationship with her husband, and she feels forgotten.
It seriously took alot me of effort to re-boost her self confidence. And somehow I can already sense it with my spider-sense that its gonna come back in another month or so. Or maybe she is just experiencing mood swing. . . Argh, Girls!
Now. . I am not complaining, because she is my very good friend, and I will go all out to help her man! Be there for her and hold her when she falls. AND, I am really glad to see that she is regaining her self-confidence! (God bless me!)
It made me realise how important it is to feel confident of oneself.
Rasheed says I am intimidating. Maybe I am just too confident of him, and of myself.
But I too, have vulnerable times when I need someone to be sitting just beside me, or him, holding me in his arms and offer a lil comfort.
Everyone needs that extra bit of care and concern.
P.S: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KIAN!!! ONE YEAR OLDER, HOPE YOU ARE ONE YEAR WISER TOO!
Is it human to feel inferior/paranoid/lost/forgotten/old/vulnerable/small etc etc?
I guess everyone needs a boost of confidence now and then.
It doesn't matter how strong a person may look, or feel.
It doesn't even matter how you feel about them, because all one need, is something to feed the mind. Or the ego.
My friend thinks she's old, and fat and ugly and has no more appeal to anyone. Which is so not true, because although she's a lil older then me, she still looks young, and cute. Definitely appealing. (Guys, you should see the way she dance man!) She feels so super inferior bout her relationship with her husband, and she feels forgotten.
It seriously took alot me of effort to re-boost her self confidence. And somehow I can already sense it with my spider-sense that its gonna come back in another month or so. Or maybe she is just experiencing mood swing. . . Argh, Girls!
Now. . I am not complaining, because she is my very good friend, and I will go all out to help her man! Be there for her and hold her when she falls. AND, I am really glad to see that she is regaining her self-confidence! (God bless me!)
It made me realise how important it is to feel confident of oneself.
Rasheed says I am intimidating. Maybe I am just too confident of him, and of myself.
But I too, have vulnerable times when I need someone to be sitting just beside me, or him, holding me in his arms and offer a lil comfort.
Everyone needs that extra bit of care and concern.
P.S: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KIAN!!! ONE YEAR OLDER, HOPE YOU ARE ONE YEAR WISER TOO!
Tuesday, April 15, 2008 12:36 AM
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Have been MIA for the longest time ever.
Just didn't have any feel to type anything.
Anyway, several things for update.
1. The bugger who's using my nick in MY tagboard you can jolly well go fuck yourself. I have no interest in whoever you are, and yes, you should have guessed that I really hate posers.
2. For those who doesn't know, I've got a full time job starting in june. Congrats to me! :D
3. Sean and I wanted AND needed different things. So we parted ways.
4. Nothing to be sorry about, because I think I've finally found the guy that I know I want. I know many of you will be thinking that this girl is bullshitting again, and I cant blame you guys cos I know i change boyfriends more quickly then you can ever keep track. But action will speak for itself. . . Hee. .
5. My birthday is coming! So think of what you can get for me! :D (P.s: No soft toys pls. I'm sooo over that age. Lol!)
6. My previous company has the whole marketing team quitting. In fact, already quitted. And sad to say, I am sooo HAPPY that it happened!
7. I went to Sean Kingston's gig the other night at MOS, and it was great! He is a 18 years old, fat, rich kid.
Nothing much already cos my life is routined between sleeping and working most days. . .
- I am starting to open up my heart again, for that special guy who understands totally what's going on. And for that, I truly appreciate and that's why I know I love you.
Just didn't have any feel to type anything.
Anyway, several things for update.
1. The bugger who's using my nick in MY tagboard you can jolly well go fuck yourself. I have no interest in whoever you are, and yes, you should have guessed that I really hate posers.
2. For those who doesn't know, I've got a full time job starting in june. Congrats to me! :D
3. Sean and I wanted AND needed different things. So we parted ways.
4. Nothing to be sorry about, because I think I've finally found the guy that I know I want. I know many of you will be thinking that this girl is bullshitting again, and I cant blame you guys cos I know i change boyfriends more quickly then you can ever keep track. But action will speak for itself. . . Hee. .
5. My birthday is coming! So think of what you can get for me! :D (P.s: No soft toys pls. I'm sooo over that age. Lol!)
6. My previous company has the whole marketing team quitting. In fact, already quitted. And sad to say, I am sooo HAPPY that it happened!
7. I went to Sean Kingston's gig the other night at MOS, and it was great! He is a 18 years old, fat, rich kid.
Nothing much already cos my life is routined between sleeping and working most days. . .
- I am starting to open up my heart again, for that special guy who understands totally what's going on. And for that, I truly appreciate and that's why I know I love you.
