Joey joined me for a few times. Kinda weird how we started meeting up also. :D However! It was nice to have her back again! Enjoy my time with her! :D

Yesterday we were at Speed again. Was quite awhile since I see Jenny, K2 and Jeff. But yesterday we were on different table. Jenny was quite high thou, and was laughing and talking silly. It was fun hearing her talk about the sotong!

Nothing much to blog about already. I just have the feel to type something. Haha.

Me: Lousy.

I'm hit by the flu virus. Its getting bad by the day even with doctor's medicine. My cough just doesn't go away. I get knocked out every time i take a dose of that disgusting cough syrup. It makes me feel like sleeping, but I cant seem to get a good sleep. I wake with every little bit of sound, checking my phone every time it rings. But every time, disappointment awaits me.

Anyway, beef also mentioned once that with expectations comes disappointment.

Its so true.

And that's why I enjoy talking to beef. Words make me realise things. But after realization, I will be the same again. Gah!

It is not that I am not happy now. I am, still as fortunate as ever, with people doting on me, treasuring me. Of course, I have people who feels that they have someone else more important than me to dote on, to treasure.

And no matter what went wrong, and when everyone around me leaves for the better, I know that I'll always have Kian beside me, silently supporting me, helping me through my toughest and lowest times.

For the umpteenth time, I am grateful to have known this precious gem that shines ever so brightly in my life. He is like my God. I don't burn offerings to him, nor do I kneel in front of him. I simply used my heart. And it is when you treat one wholeheartedly, that you are treated with due respect.

I have always imagined that one day, when my boyfriend proposed to me, he'll be the first one to share my happiness. And when I am wearing my wedding gown, he'll be standing next to me, the two of us looking at each other with tears in our eyes, silently saying "I am glad this day came."

Or when I have my first baby, he will be the first (other then my hubby) to see my baby, and carry him/her in his arms, comforting the fragile new life, cuddling softly right in front of his chest.

It is like, my life cannot be complete without him. It is THAT dramatic.

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Ok. Time to come back to reality. I am drifting too far away.